1. Mary Beth Danielson
    February 6, 2017 @ 9:38 am

    Two things: 1. Fear as magpies screaming against a yellow sky. I’ve never thought what fear would look or sounds like, but yes, this is it. This is such a strong image. And 2. I like that I can see that Jack is changing and growing. That none of this is easy, but he is moving and growing forward, Maybe for a kid with Autism in them, we see more clearly than in “normal” people, that the struggle is always to deal with the fear and then keep going. Lots of adults adults don’t understand this at all. Thanks for this.


  2. Karen Martin
    February 6, 2017 @ 9:41 am

    A beautiful boy. An amazing dog. And a very, very wonderful mother.


  3. GP
    February 6, 2017 @ 2:07 pm

    My child (also age 12) has also been experiencing increasing anxiety since the start of puberty. Medication has helped, but puberty seems to contribute to the gradual increase in anxiety. Lately, she has been showing some OCD type characteristics. The OCD behaviors look like a maladaptive mechanism to help her “calm” the underlying anxiety. My child says that she gets a feeling that something really bad is going to happen unless she does something a certain way (e.g. avoid an activity or say something multiple times).

    Have you asked Jack if he believes something bad is going to happen if he does not check on you after he goes to bed? If yes, that, to me, would sound like an OCD type of behavior. If he just misses you, it may be separation anxiety, and the approach to help alleviate these symptoms would tend to be different.

    Perhaps, temporarily going to bed at the same time as the children (at least “officially”) may help eliminate that hour of him checking on you every 10 minutes. We usually read or watch TV (sometimes with headphones) in our bedroom so that the house is quiet and it appears that we have all gone to bed. For us, it was worth the inconvenience because it helped my child get into a bedtime routine that really helped her fall asleep. Also, without any bedtime drama, we are now able to unwind much better after a long day.


  4. Kim Black
    February 7, 2017 @ 12:37 am

    Happy birthday Wolfie!


  5. Lana
    February 7, 2017 @ 7:54 am

    I smiled and got a little teary when I realized the point of view of your essay, and why Jack needed the candle. I remember when he was so afraid of dogs, I remember the story of the dog in the hotel lobby. I’m so happy to read that Wolfie has become Jack’s fuzzy weighted blanket. Dogs rock. And you, mama – you rock!


  6. A
    February 7, 2017 @ 1:40 pm

    How is it that you can read my heart so well?


  7. Janet (grandmother) God Bless
    February 10, 2017 @ 8:22 pm

    Very touching and loving Happy Birthday Wolfie and Thank-you for the comfort you give Jack, without words.


  8. Beth Brown Johnson
    February 13, 2017 @ 1:02 am

    This is so artsy and raw. I love it, and I know the fear you feel is as his mother.


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