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  1. Alison
    June 22, 2015 @ 11:44 am

    I can so relate to this – it made me cry a little, but that seems to be my norm lately. We have a Charlie too, but he is the youngest. He’s going to his first sibling workshop tonight, hoping for a little help in understanding this difficult concept that is autism.

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  2. Lisa
    June 22, 2015 @ 1:57 pm

    Aww bless his heart. Such a gorgeous face. He looks like a thinker. I like the way you write. Very glad to have found you.

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  3. Sara
    June 22, 2015 @ 2:01 pm

    I so love your writing. It’s lyrical and soothing and wise. Thank you.

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  4. stephanie geiger
    June 22, 2015 @ 2:23 pm

    Beautiful. Thank you for your posts…

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  5. steffielyn
    June 22, 2015 @ 2:26 pm

    Beautiful. Thank you for your posts. (even though I always seem to tear up as I read them…)

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  6. Snowescape15
    June 22, 2015 @ 5:04 pm

    Very interesting blog, I grew up with three younger brothers the oldest having autism. I think we are very stereotypical birth order siblings. It is nice to hear how other large families are making it through.

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  7. NickyB.
    June 22, 2015 @ 10:25 pm

    This was beautiful. He is so handsome.

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  8. Cate Pane: The Clear Parent
    June 23, 2015 @ 12:37 am

    Love this post! I grew up as a middle child in a family of 6 with a schizophrenic sibling. I can honestly say that I in the long run, I benefited from my birth order. It is obvious that you love your son very much, anxiety and all. Sending good thoughts your way!

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  9. Tammy
    June 23, 2015 @ 12:47 am

    I look forward to Mondays…..because when I read your writings…I don’t feel alone.

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  10. oshrivastava
    June 23, 2015 @ 3:10 am

    Reblogged this on oshriradhekrishnabole.

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  11. Melanie
    June 23, 2015 @ 9:10 am

    Your writing is so poetic and beautiful. I have no autistic children of any sort but your writing is so universal, I can still relate to every post. I can only applaud the honesty and rawness of this confession. We are so easy to be hard on ourselves as mothers, but I’m positive that he will grow up to know how much he was loved by his parents, and will find his special place as Middle and appreciate all that you did for him!

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  12. Connie Jensen
    June 23, 2015 @ 6:21 pm

    This perfectly describes our middle son. Thanks for helping us not feel alone in this journey.

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  13. findingcoopersvoice
    June 23, 2015 @ 6:23 pm

    I so so so so get this! My four year old is autistic and nonverbal. My 2 year old is NT and precocious and hungry for life and attention. I worry more about him. Will he have to take care of his brother for the rest of his life? Will he resent Cooper. Will he feel the love of a brother? The questions weigh on me constantly. It’s all so hard.

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  14. Rebekah Miller
    June 24, 2015 @ 12:02 am

    My husband too has thought Luke the 12yo created his anxiety to make life difficult. It wasn’t until I married him that he began to realize Luke’s anxiety is not Luke’s personal failing.

    You’re a good mom. Good moms see what is happen and do their best to correct when needed. That’s the best any of us can hope to do.

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  15. terismyth
    July 8, 2015 @ 11:33 pm

    I like reading your story. Our boys are 8 yrs apart the youngest with autism. He is 22 now. Most of the time we have things under control, but other times I see the ugly part of autism and I’m tired.
    Thank you for being a good mom. It’s the best job in the whole world.

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